Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Coping

Dragon Mood? -- like I said, I'm in a coping mood and mode

Yesterday, in shock and my feelings bouncing around like overheated molecules, I cleaned. Cleaned with a capital C! I stripped our bed right down to the mattress, laundered all the linens, not only rotated but also FLIPPED our queen-size mattress all by myself (a.k.a. layoff energy!), vacuumed the floors, knocked down incredible spider webs (sorry, spiders) and whirled around the little pied-a-terre trying to dissipate energy in my disbelieving state.

Today, I woke at my regular wake-up time (5:20 a.m.) in an absolute panic that I had overslept. Then I remembered. (heavy sigh) Oh, geez.

I couldn't summon layoff energy for a second day so I spent a lot more time today at the computer. Particularly, I Photoshopped. I knew it would be good therapy for me. I worked on the cute little dragon image at the top of the right-hand column on this page. I'm very pleased with the results.

Bad News

Dragon Mood? -- shocked

In this time when it's almost impossible to listen to any media source and not hear bad news, ... well, I've got my own story to tell now.

Yesterday, the last day of March, I was laid off, sacked, given the boot; however you want to say it, I am now unemployed.

And this is no April Fool's joke. I wish.

(heavy sigh)

We were cautioned about six weeks ago that layoffs were coming. At the beginning of February, however, I was given a merit raise for my job performance. I was sent to three days of training in March for an upcoming software update. Would you conclude that you were targeted for layoff based on those actions? I wasn't.

So, honestly, I was surprised. Shocked actually. As my boss's boss greeted me in a conference room with the requisite Human Resources person, my heart began to pound. I thought for sure they could hear it, it was so loud in my chest. I just wanted to cry out, "No, no, NOT ME!"

So, I am now unemployed. I join the ranks and crowds and hundreds of thousands of people out of work. Small comfort in not being alone.

Damn!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

just a few shy of infinity

Dragon Mood? -- frustrated!

Ihave so MANY pictures to download off of our digital camera, it's not even funny. Like a zillion? Which as everyone knows is just shy of the cosmic, the unending, the infinite.

Me with a goofy lookAre you familiar with the word, "ginormous?" Ginormous as in gi-gantic and e-normous? Curious word, isn't it? It feels like its been thrown together, a badly-made last-minute Halloween costume, you know, and then you wonder why people look at you oddly?

Well, given how little time (or is it inclination?) I have to spend time downloading digital pix off the camera, if I continue to procrastinate, these pictures will balloon into one ginormous beast of a task! Oh, save me from THAT beast!

[UPDATE]: So, now I have a ginormous number MINUS five (or is it six?) photos to download. This goofy one of me is one I downloaded and sepia-ized. Is that a word?

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Wild night

Dragon Mood? -- slightly embattled

While putting together the previous post, I also was watching the local TV weather guy reporting on an oncoming storm. It looked big, substantial and in some areas, downright nasty. Turns out, we got the nasty.

Still at the pied-a-terre in Detroit, S and I heard the distant rumbling of thunder coming closer and closer. We stood outside on our front porch, watching the western sky. S pointed out that the clouds were going one direction and the trees were blowing another. While out there, the wind suddenly picked up speed; the storm was literally "blowing" in.

We headed inside to check the weather report again. S suddenly yelled to open the windows (we had the A/C on) to provide some pressure relief. As I opened the window, another gust blew by. The force of it felt downright scary. The rain was blowing sideways. S ran upstairs to open the windows on both ends of our gable-roof second story. I heard a curious "whooshing" sound and ran to the front door. When I opened the door, there was our street tree, suddenly embracing and enclosing our front porch and the aluminum awning over it. It had blown down on our house! I was stunned!

First glimpse of the tree

The rain continued to pour down, sideways, and the wind blew like you see on TV when they're showing hurricanes. Amazing! We wanted to go outside and see what our house looked like, but the rain and the lightning were too much ... so we waited.

We heard a voice yelling, ran to the front window and looked out. Our neighbor, Ryan, was standing there in a windbreaker and flip-flops, drenched. "Are you okay?" he asked. We ran out to join him, but didn't stay long; the rain was still too heavy. And the lightning was still too frequent, one or more strikes a minute.

After a while, we ventured out again, the rain lighter by now, and scoped out our fallen tree and damaged house. The front awning is definitely crunched on one side. The tree was literally lifted up, sod, roots and all, and laid down on our roof. There is a giant earthen bulge in the area between the street and the newly-laid concrete sidewalk, tree still attached to the bulge. Weird-looking!

Earthen bulge I

By 8 or 8:30, we could hear chain saws going in the distance. Shortly after dark, we could see truck lights down at the end of our street. There was a tree across the road there. Just four houses north of us, another tree had been uprooted and laid across the street, grazing and damaging a brand-new Mercedes Benz and some other late-model car. With regard to that, I felt especially fortunate. While the storm was uprooting our tree, my car sat parked on the street, literally within three feet of the destroyed tree. Wow!

Earthen bulge II



from our neighbors' lawn

After the initial shock, the street acquired almost a party atmosphere. People were walking and bicycling by, stopping to take pictures of our tree and the other ones on our street with their cellphone cameras. People are funny! There were big truck rigs, burly guys with chain saws cutting up the trees blocking the road, the smell of diesel fuel and sawdust everywhere. We talked to city officials hurrying in in their official city pickups, hey, we've got a tree on our roof. They checked it out, said sorry, we've got worse situations that we need to take care of first. We'll be back later.

Workin' a chain saw

And they were. Around 3:30 this morning! Yup, a crew of at least 8 to 10 guys and one woman showed up at 3:30 and by 4:30 they were done. The tree was down, the big logs cut and piled alongside the street on the earthen bulge, and all the foliage and debris raked up and fed into a giant wood chipper. S was so envious. She said she'd love to have a chipper that size!

I headed to bed around 5 a.m. I was just starting to drift off when I heard these deep rumbling sounds. I touched S and said, "It's starting to thunder again."

"No," she said, "they're picking up the logs."

I ran to a front window, and sure enough, she was right. There was a huge truck with a giant claw attached to its back. A worker was maneuvering the claw to pick up each 4 to 6-feet-long log and drop it in the back of the truck. Hence, the deep rumbling sounds!

Finally, about 5:30 this morning, I fell asleep. What a night! It's one I won't forget for awhile, you can bet on that!

[I hope to post pictures tomorrow. For now, I'm pooped and still need to drive to the other house, the one with ALL the trees. Ha-ha.]

Next day -- picture-perfect Saturday

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Again, with the positivity!

Dragon Mood? -- attempting to swing BACK to positivity

And now, for more viewing pleasure ... please reference this posting.

Job Update

Dragon Mood? -- catching up

Can you believe it? -- I hardly can. I'm in the middle of the tenth week of my shiny-brand-new job! I've gotten to the point where I can really crank through the easy parts. And even the balancing of several middling-hard tasks, I can manage with a fair amount of composure.

But today was a new high ... and low. I finished transferring a huge amount of data this morning, sent out emails announcing "the data's there" to all the responsible parties ... and by 3 o'clock this afternoon, learned from a gentle messenger that a significant portion of the data was, simply put, crap! ArrrghhH! Talk about disappointed! Talk about embarrassed! Talk about distressed!

Thankfully, my boss set me straight. It's not my job to validate downloaded data, just download it. And the problem didn't start with me. It started at the source of the download ... again, which isn't me.

It's all about me, you see. Or, in this case, not me. And it wasn't ... about me. It was about them, whoever and where ever those ubiquitous, invisible corporate suit-wearing IT persons are!

So ... my boss was gonna fire off a polite but crankily firm email about the poor quality of this data ... with highly informative yet incriminating screen dumps of the poor data quality supplied by me. We need good data! What the hell are you yahoos waiting for?

I love it!